okay, i know i was being a freaking big idiot. i apologise for that.
anyway, its ok if you dont forgive me. what i did was rather horrible, and i realise that now.
funny thing how people realise things too late, after the damage is done.
i want to change. change into someone who is less insensitive, less idiotic.
i admit, im an ass for doing the things that i did.
hopefully next year will be different. i dont wanna hurt any more people.
i want things to be like in saint hildas.
i miss the awesome times with nowelle and xinwei.
somehow, i end up hurting the people i try the hardest not to.
maybe the best thing is to not even try. to let it come naturally. hell yea. like that will work anyway.

nat, you didnt do anything to make things worse. the damage was done by us, im sorry if that troubled you. and you didnt get in the way of our friendship at all. your cool. hope well stay friends : )

haha. ever experienced the funny event of you asking people about what they were talking about, and they tell you 'nothing.'?
interesting topic that one, 'nothing. generates all sorts of interesting reactions. most of the time when people tell you 'nothing', they were actually talking about something to do with you. heh.

we got a rock concert pic for oral. like haha. easssyy! : ) but the examiner kept interrupting me mid-blabbing. is that bad?

5 songs in listening to now.

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3. afterglow by INXS. (they dotn have it on radioblog.>.<
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this song is in jap. with some english.

thats all for now. need to study history. hopefully i dont dream of the tang dynasty again. -_-