if i could turn back time, i would. i would so i could tell you everything i always wanted to. so i could thank you for all the things you did for me, to let you know how i feel. for listening to all my complaints and comforting me. i really wish i could tell you how i feel . but i dont have that kind of courage. you cheered me up, and threw so much fun into my life. you were one of the few i could trust. i want to thank you for all the times you were there for me, waited for me, stayed with me when the others went ahead. youre my best friend, maybe even more than that. i hope you know who you are. you mean the world to me, and i dont know what id do without you. dont ever forget that.

i went back to shps today. felt so happy to see everyone. everyones changed so much. well at least some of them did anyway : ) met up with some of the teachers, mr soong, ms wong, lee lao shi, mr nizam. then waited for the anglican high people to come. then we went out to century square, ate lunch, shopped a bit then went to central park to play bball.
X) thats basically it. oh, and thank you xin wei for waiting for me when the rest went ahead first : )

Your Career Personality: Capable, Friendly, and Energetic

Your Ideal Careers: Actor Advertising Executive Artist Counselor Entrepreneur Musician Politician Psychologist Teacher Television Reporter

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

okay. dad brought me to the doc today. due to the worsening condition of my eczema. and the doc said 'STOP SWIMMING' . like hell.NO WAY.NADA. jiao lian will torture me, skin me alive and hang me upside down. we told him i cant stop .so he said. take a break. so thats it. IM LAYING OFF UNTIL AFTER HONG KONG OPEN . (which i am not swimming in). >_< hn. at least can go out with all the shps people now. and actually go shopping with my mum in hk.
oh damn.
still have english pt to do. im planning on chong-ing that tomorrow. and then studying for maths. which ill probabably fail.
so depressing. GRAWR. #@%^&$

hahas. on a happier note, me and shin are planning a collab. we just cant figure out who to do what. X)
hn. kinda into some dance songs now. actually maybe not all dance songs. just songs with female vocals. hahas. like CASCADA. and DHT. and DELERIUM. and INHABITED. ENIGMA (love the song 'gravity of love') . etc. and THE VERONICAS. grawr. i shall spend my days of laying off searching for nice not so well known songs.
hm. found some of my old songs. new found glory etc. hahas.

jap music. I LIKE. LOTS of electric guitar. XD . recommend -> ASIAN KUNGFU GENERATION. ORANGE RANGE. DO AS INFINITY.

grar. toodles.

whhoooosh. so we finally finished our sappy song. which, i wrote. like most of it at least. therefore im an elligible SAP. X) i like sappy stuff. like cry-your-heart-out movies. : ) YEAAAAAAA. I CAN GO BACK TO SHPS ON 31ST! X) well go back together ok amanda! : ) hahas. we figured this out during assembly today->
V -vanessa
A- amanda
N-natalie

hahas. FRIENDS FOREVER! : ) thanks for listening to all my ramblings and understanding how i feel. as for someone else, youre JUST WAY TOO SENSITIVE. so bug off. and the next time you piss me off, im gonna give you a piece of my mind. and the other someone, same goes for you. this time i may not even want to bother talking to you.

im tired of living in your shadow.
tired of being looked down upon.
ill muster up the confidence
overcome the obstacles.
cause i believe my dreams are real.
cause ill never give up.
ill step out of your shadow.
into the light.
ill do what it takes.
im gonna leave you behind.

eh. sorry. i sound so emo. X) heres a random nice song ->



BLIND - LIFEHOUSE

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go


O_O. wait. this reminds me of sonea and akkarin ( black amgician trilogy) . whats with me and book characters?!

oh well. gotta go now. like have to sleep. tomorrow shall be MUG-LIKE-HEll-FOR-MATHS-DAY.

ello everyone. I FINALLY GOT MY BRACES FIXED. and its ORANGE . x) eeeyeeer. the anashetic didnt work that well. so i had to be jabbed like 8 times la. *faints* NEEDLES ARE TRAUMATISING. espescially BIG and LONG ones. and the dentist stretched my mouth so much T_T i bet my mouth is gonna hurt like hell tomorrow morn. O_O;;;
Just finished chionging Maths PT. phewww. I LOVE YOU JANE! YOU SAVED ME FROM MANUALLY CALCULATING 13 STDEVS! now i need to find BIG BIG cardboard for Lit Pt. then me and charmain can finally start doing our backdrop.
NAT! Ill lend you me nice books after all the darned tests! hahas. and i do like rock. : ) rock and emo. and metal. : D
eeks. gtg now. and eat PORRIDGE. eeeeee.

i was listening to this song. then suddenly it hit me. this really reminds me of Iggy from maximum ride. youll probably find no connection if you dont read the book.
Iggy rocks! X)
BLOW ME AWAY . by BREAKING BENJAMIN.


[Verse 1:]
They fall in line
One at a time
Ready to play
(I can't see them anyway)
No time to lose
We've got to move
Steady the helm
(I am losing sight again)

[Bridge:]
Fire your guns
It's time to roll
Blow me away
(I will stay, in the mess I made)
After the fall
We'll shake it off
Show me the way

[Chorus:]
Only the strongest will survive.
Lead me to heaven when we die
I am the shadow on the wall
I'll be the one to save us all

[Verse 2:]
There's nothing left
So save your breath
Lying awake
(Caught inside this tidal wave)
Your covers blown
No where to go
Holding your fate
(Loaded I will walk alone)

[Bridge:]
Fire your guns
It's time to roll
Blow me away
(I will stay, in the mess I made)
After the fall
We'll shake it off
Show me the way

[Chorus:]
Only the strongest will survive
Lead me to heaven when we die
I am the shadow on the wall
I'll be the one to save us all

Wanting it back (DON'T LET ME DIE!)

(Here it comes!)

[Chorus:]
Only the strongest will survive
Lead me to heaven when we die
I am the shadow on the wall
I'll be the one to save us all

Save us all

hey. history test was HORRIBLE. ugh. did pretty well for geog though. geog=lifesaver.
today is the official last day that i can eat solid food for the next 2 weeks.
changed the song on the front to a video. : ) luff that song. its called ' rewrite ' by asian kung fu generation. theyre the best < 3
eghh. gotta do my stupid assignments now. and pts. byee.

OWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW just extracted 2/4 teeth. SHIT. its BLOODY. yepp. theres blood flowing outta my mouth. like a vampireeee. oooooghhh. my head hurts man. SHIT. gonna try to sleep it off now
toodles.

yea. finally bought the veronicas album. and it ROCKS MAN! ahahaha <3 im gonna get braces soon. but i have to extract 4 teeth. so its gonna take a while. SHOOT. 4 teeth. eeeeeeeeeyoowwwwwwwwwww. so itll take a total of 2 and a half weeks to complete everything. >_< YAY. THERESA BROKE WORLD RECORD. GO THERESA GOOOO!!!

something i did. in class. <3

DARK BLUE by JACK'S MANNEQUIN


I have. I have you
Breathing down my neck, breathing down my neck
I don't, don't know
What you could possibly expect under this condition
So I'll wait, I'll wait
For the ambulance to come, ambulance to come
Pick us up off the floor
What did you possibly expect under this condition

So slow down... this night's a
Perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue
Have you ever been alone
In a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue

This flood (this flood) is slowly rising up swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet, Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so
I'll swim (I'll swim) as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down
And now all I can see are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I slow down

This night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue (dark blue)

This flood (this flood) is slowly rising up swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet, Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so
I'll swim (I'll swim) as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down
And now all I can see are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I slow down

This night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning dark blue

We were boxing
We were boxing the stars
We were boxing (we were boxing)
You were swinging for Mars
And then the water reached the West Coast
And took the power lines (the power lines)
And it was me and you (this could last forever)
And the whole town under water
There was nothing we could do
It was dark blue

Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the room could be burning now there's nothing but dark blue

If you've ever been alone in the dark blue
If you've ever been alone you'll know (you'll know)

--- for the person who is pissed at me--

im sorry i insulted your friend.im even more sorry that your life is messed up. but your life isnt as bad as you think it is. you have friends who care. you have people who like you. you dont have a permanently screwed up shoulder and knee. you arent half flat footed. you dont have a curved spine. people dont tell others not to talk to you in your face.
im SORRY. accept this or leave it. damn it. wheres my pillow.. i need to cry.

hey. We played basketball with the guys yesterday. and it was SO messy. like 19 people on one court? changed the song on the front page. :) poor shin's maid is stuck in jakarta. she got conned by some conmen. shes stuck in a policestation in jakarta, cant come back to singapore,cant go back to her family. damn you, conmen.
and to answer charles' question long ago, yes, i do like rock. its quite obvious from the songs i put on the front page. My eczema is getting bad again. shoot. it hurts when i bend it in the water. errghh.
ILL MISS YOU GIO! MAKE SURE YOU COME BACK!
and sorry christine, if FHD is pissed at you because of what i did, go ahead and tao me. Just tell me his email so i can go apologise..

i know, training sucks sometimes, nomatter what sport you are in. but, you arent the only one who has trouble in training. everyone faces problems during training. so just yell a bit, and get it over with.

Gotta start drawing again. ive been out of practice..
FMA fans, go and watch COS! : D it totally rockkks. but make sure you watch finish the series before you watch it. or youll be LOST.
i wanna go watch 'helen the baby fox' reviews are really good, and i like those kind of warm-and-fuzzy-make-you-cry-buckets kind of movies. Basically, i love japanese and korean drama movies. And the aeroplane always has good movies. :) YEAAA. may be going to japan for end of year holiday. : D haha. going to hong kong at the end of august. 3 more weeks? cause my bro has Hong Kong open. YEAAAAA. SHOPPPPINGGGG.

hmm. watched until episode 18 for samurai champloo. AWESOME. great quality, good voice actors, pretty good plot, and nice endihng song. the character design rockks too. Heard the last few episodes are fantastic. cant wait for it. Gonna buy the vcds man.

heres something i drew during erm.. june? and yes, i did draw that. -_- lightof_infinity happens to be my email.

here are the lyrics for the song playing on the video on the front page. i couldnt find the song alone , so i had to use the video instead. this type of video is called an amv. : D its pretty good though. the maker won best action video in the 2006 amv awards.

Revolution . by Inhabited (its a christian rock band)

Have we played these games too long
That tomorrow's come and gone
while we're waiting for a sign
we're distracted by our eyes
it's time to let it go
forgetting what we know
were letting God take control oh

weve gotta change
gotta start a revolution in this place
were not ashamed
gonna sing gonna shout
thats what im talking about yea
do you feel the change
theres a transformation taking place
were not ashamed
gonna sing gonna shout this is a God revolution

You know its time to take a stand
all across this land
the time is here the time is now
we gotta reach out some how
its time to let it go
forgetting what we know
were letting God take control oh

weve gotta change
theres a revolution taking place
were not ashamed
gonna sing gonna shout
thats what im talking about yea
do you feel the change
theres a transformation taking place
were not ashamed
gonna sing gonna shout this is a God revolution

were letting go take control x4

take take take take take take take take take control x2

weve gotta change, gotta start a revolution
were not ashamed, gonna sing gonna shout
thats what im talking about yea

revolution x3

gonna sing gonna shout this is a God revolution

revolution
this is a God revolution

revolution
revolution

a God revolution

Hello:) national day celebrations today. It was okay. just kind of boring..and SQUASHED. we had PSL session after that. the LAST one of the year.. then me,sheryl,christine and melinda walked to far east for lunch. cause the buses were so SLOW, and so SQUASHED-ED-ED. the people in the bus looked like they were suffocating. O_O. Ate BK for lunch, then dragged melinda and christine to CC. where i bought box 1 of samurai champloo(haha.its rated m18 for violence, but the cashier didnt care XD).Then they dragged me to the neoprint shop. I am SO not photogenic. haha. i look bad in MOST photos.There was 3 of us, so we ran out of poses after like the 6th one.(we had 12) and we were REALLY lost without veronica to do the decorations for the prints. O_O;;
YIPES. need to seriously update my friendster. the last time i went there was ... 1 year ago..

eeps. its 12.02 am now. -_- *zombie face* need to sleeeeep. heres a pic. i drew a long time ago.WAIT.GRAGGGH. INTERNET WONT LET IT LOAD. oh wells. next time .

The naruto second movie TOTALLY ROCKS! i watched it just now before tuition. seriously. it freaking ROCKS. MUCH much better than the first. and theres Gaara, shikamaru and kankurou in it >_< and the storyline is interesting too! not like the first one. i fell asleep watching the first one. The second movie rockks. SO GO WATCH IT! :D
GRRR. When in the heck will 'stormbreaker' and 'Gedo Senki' BE RELEASED??????
*fume fume fume*
ahahah. my samurai champloo episode has loaded! I shall go watch it now. byebye.

Vanessa + Algreba = massacre of brain cells.
O_O;; maths..kills..me..

decided to do a tsubasa drawing. : )
see it soon enough.

here are the lyrics for the song playing on the front page. PHENOMENON by THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH

BRIDGE:
If you like us, calling all riders
Pull up beside us, no place to hide us
We're freedom fighters, let's unite us
Switch on your nitros, and. let's. go.

Destination, for navigation, man up your stations
Feel the sensation
Surround invasion, with communication
Move quick, we might avoid contamination

CHORUS:
Down, here comes the sound,
everyone pound your feet to this Phenomenon
Now, let's make it loud,
and let me show them all how you move to this Phenomenon
Woah, open your soul, baby, lose control,
inside of this Phenomenon
Just let yourself go, and let everyone know,
you moved to this Phenomenon

Don't let these spiders crawl up beside us,
they want to bite us, inject the virus
Raise up your lighters, praise to the
Righteous, need You to guide us
Get prepared to go

BRIDGE
CHORUS

Can't take it anymore, shaken till we move the floor
What are we waiting for? Lets go!
Tired of being ordinary, don't care if theres people staring
I know you said you'd carry me ... on
I'm not invisible like you, next time
things get a little messed up
I'll shine, but I'll never be see-through
I'm fine just trying to wake the rest up

CHORUS

You moved this Phenomenon
You moved this Phenomenon

Hey. sorry about that melinda.i was just kinda upset then.its okay now, no need to say sorry.HAHA. heard keng ju's national day thing on the radio. : ) theresa is going to texas on tuesday! XD mann. i want to go la. I finally figured out how to take screenshots : ) so there are some below. haha. this morning after training, something idiotic happened. We (Theresa,Kengju,Chenxun) were watching the synchronised goldfish video.this is what happened :
KJ: goldfish have a memory of 3 seconds.
CX: my girlfriend always says i have goldfish memory.
KJ: really?
CX: ya.
KJ: hello, im keng ju.
-3seconds later-
CX: and you are?
KJ: hi, im keng ju.
-3 seconds later -
CX: and you are?
KJ: hi, im keng ju.

we laughed like mad after that. :) eheheh. just got back from granddads birthday dinner. had a HUGE crab >_<

Screeenshot one. samurai champloo wallpaper.
screenshot two.fullmetal alchemist 'the sinner' wallpaper.
screenshot three. yondaime hokage wallpaper.

My internet is actually working properly now. -_- .the photos are at the bottom. : ) enyjoyy. WE FINALLY GOT OUR TUNE! yeshh. now for the hard part, lyrics to match a A A- song structure.. haha, heard the thing keng ju did for national day on the radio. ^_^ theresa~ lend me your over the hedge! haha.
School was kind of bad today..two of my friends were fighting .. and one of them was hurt really bad.But the other one was kind of inconsiderate, changing partners without even asking if i allowed it. And someone was of no help at all. :(
-waiting for the pictures to upload-
They just told us we have psl session on tuesday. OH GREAT.there goes my plans for going back to SHPS. couldnt they have told us earlier..?

WAIT FOR IT TO LOAD.

ME AND BELINDA
ROLLER COASTER IN THE DARK
TAYUYA. Drawn for god angel ashley. : )
TOWER OF TERROR!
BEST CHOCOLATE SHOP EVER.

more pictures next time : )

eeps. my internet seems to be hell bent on not letting me post photos today..another time, then.

PETTY/PETTINESS :jealousy and spitefulness,an attitude not generous and caring only about small unimportant things.
Please, you wont DIE from eating one freaking stalk of veggie, you dolt. You hurt others ,dont apologise and laugh right in their faces, and you cry over the smallest of things. Even tolerance has a maximum level, so take a good look at yourself, and keep your mouth shut before someone else shuts it for you.
I walked into the fire hydrant again.-__-;;; OWIE. im a klutz. XD. finally found out who some of the people who added me on msn were : ) . We got our lit pt for drama today. and im the set designer. have to make a backdrop and props by the end of the term, so janael the costume desinger can make costumes to suit the backdrop. problem is,i cant find a piece of cardboard big enough...
ONE TREE HILL! yay, lucas is back. cant wait for jakes appearance. : ) Aesthetics tomorrow.. doing music. have to compose a song, with lyrics. and i get stcuk with doing the lyrics.. cant wait for dance. though ill probably screw everything up with my horrendous coordination..

pictures in next post.

PFFT. the people from yellow wave have come over to farrer park for the 2 week Red&White trial. good luck to all, and hope you dont faint at the end. yesterday's training was ok.20x100, 20x50 etc. we played frisbee catching again. except the dudes from yellow dont understand the meaning of 'DO NOT RUN ON THE ROAD'.a car even honked them. Heh it was wayy more fun the first time we played it, with some of the RW guys.
heres a list of things most people probably wont know about me.
-1.Even if i dont like what you are doing or saying, i shut up and dont say it.Doesnt mean im ok with it.
-2.Seriously piss me off and you die.
-3.I need to learn to let go.
-4.When i look extremely happy, im the exact opposite.
-5.I laugh but im crying.
-6.Delusion is the best medicine.
-7.Im not spaced out. im THINKING about the idiotic things you do.
-8.I remember laughter,smiles,hurt and tears.
-9.You dont exactly know we as well as you think.
-10.I am a coward. i RUN, HIDE,and regret.

yep. im sounding depressed. im NOT. im perfectly fine, other than hearing your hollow laughter and sarcasm. pssh.

here are the lyrics to 'ghost of you' by MCR.

i never said i'd lie and wait forever
if i died we'd be together
i cant always just forget her
but she could try

at the end of the world
or the last thing i see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever ever...
ever...

get the feeling that you're never
all alone and i remember now
at the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
she dies

at the end of the world
or the last thing i see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
for all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

if i fall
if i fall (down)

at the end of the world
or the last thing i see
you are
never coming home
never coming home
never coming home
never coming home
and all the things that you never ever told me
and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
never coming home
never coming home
could i? should i?
and all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
for all the ghosts that are never gonna...

--- i love this song. hear it at radioblogclub.com : )

decided to update. from here on, ill try to update as much as possible, in between brain torturing maths, sleeping, eating and reading. Ann is back from korea! :) more letters now.angels, i know your identities. and thanks for all the presents, and listening to my ranting. :) here is post camp/nationals/etc.etc update.

-CAMP-
haha. guess i promised to update, but i didnt. kill me if you want.
eleven most fun things in R&W camp
-1.K.A.Y.A.K.I.N.G thanks loads, uncle dan!
-2.being capsized.and floating in the sea.
-3.Bowling. and the hopelessness of it all. XD
-4.marathoning on the poor tiny portable dvd player.
-5.laughing at the woman on ch8 9 o clock show, who yells "fa-ge! fa-ge!"
which we assumed was the eff word.
-6.the staurday prata dinner. thanks to the parents for helping to cook. :)
-7.rooming with amanda and sheryl.
-8.PARA PARA. which i suck at.
-9.yelling at the guys for buying takopachi. *abish*
-10.the nice r&w people.
-11. laughing at nigelvb getting stuck in the swing. and the slide.

-Nationals-

Raffles won double champs. ( girls). acsi won B div guys. (hahah YEA!) the dinner was a waste of time.gurgh. and most of the supporters were there for other reasons than cheering.-_-; got dunked 11 times. by -> rach goh.charles tan.yvonne tan.amanda chew. etc.,etc..
went back on the primary school nationals to promote rgs. amanda and joash were having a head bonking war. and i was stuck in the middle. O_O. in the end. i bonked both of them.and got bonked back. eesh. ya get what ya give.
Chew got dunked.by jiahao. at first she thought she could escape if she sat down, but heck, he carried her bridal style and jumped into the pool.

thats it for the old stuff.